Ok, so last Thursday I was home sick from school and I caved. I called Jeff. (I'm not sure if it should be called 'caving' but essentially, that's what I did.) And I got his voicemail. So I left a message, but he hasn't called me back. However, it's not the fact that he hasn't called me back (yet) that bothers/worries me. It's the fact that it went straight to voicemail, no ringing, not even once. Just straight to voicemail. That means that his phone was off. It was the middle of the day (around one or two in the afternoon), and his phone was off. Why? He never has his phone off. I don't even think he has it off at night. Yet, it was off. Add that to the fact that I haven't heard from him in about a month, and I'm really starting to get worried, especially after that 'stunt' he pulled last time. (No, it wasn't a stunt, but I say that to make myself feel better.) That last time I didn't from him it was because his lung collapsed, spontaneously. I didn't hear or talk to him for two months. And to be honest, I wasn't that scared. People disappear all the time from online talking (IMing). And then he told me what happened and I freaked. And NOW...well, now I'm scared shitless. He hasn't been online for almost a month, and he hasn't called me for about the same time period.
If this is his way of telling me he doesn't want to talk to me anymore, well, then it's a cruel way of telling someone. But I know him, so I know he's not trying to tell me that. I mean, after all, it took me about six months to get his phone number, and why would he give that out now if he didn't want to talk to me? I don't abuse it. I'm not calling him at all hours, every day, wanting to talk. But the facts that I'm getting are really worrisome, and short of getting on a plane and flying to New York, I don't know what to do. (I wouldn't get far though. All i know is that he lives in Brooklyn.) I have no other numbers to call to get in touch with family, friends, work of his. What am I to think? I don't know, so I'm thinking everything.
5 comments:
it's not 'caving', it's more like you've beenso long without hearing him you decided to call. Nothing wrong with being human. His phone could also be on voicemail because he doesn't want to speak with anyone while he sorts out things in life.
And if you really want to get in touch with him, why not google his name?
Good luck :)
You're right, and I know I'm just overanalyzing the whole thing (big surprise there), but I'm still worried. Not to mention, I don't know what he'd have to sort out. But ok. I'll give him another week to somehow get in touch with me and then call again.
I could google him, but I don't even know his last name...Which I didn't even realize until now.
Sorry if this will sound like a bummer but are you sure he is what he says he is? Maybe he's married? Maybe he's much older? It's the internet. don't get too attached to people you meet on the internet.
Socialworker-Thanks. I don't blame myself, but I'm worried.
Nicky-You're right, and I've considered all of that. But even if he isn't who he says he is, I'm still worried. I'd rather give him the benefit of the doubt than dismiss this whole thing as a lie by him. I mean, who would make up a spontaneously collapsed lung? I don't think he's a mean, mentally sick person, so I don't think it's that. Either way, lie or truth, fact is, I'm worried.
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