Or, in my case, the fourth time. At least that is what I am hoping. Praying. I am placing all my cards on this one last time, my one last shot. And because it is my last time, I am filled with angst and indecision about everything. Will I be ready in three weeks? Should I change the date (again) so I can study more? Will studying more even help me? Should I get a private tutor? Am I just not cut out to do this and am having an extremely hard time acknowledging it? Should I just give up and let it go?
Those are just the questions that are constantly repeated in my head. There are more floating around in there. Obviously, I do not have the answers to any of those questions. (If I did, I would not be here.) The only answer I have is that because this is my last shot, I want to give it my all. I want to go in knowing that I did everything in my power to succeed, knowing that I am as ready as I will ever be to do it, and if that means moving the date again, then so be it. Then, and only then, will I be able to let it go.
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