What Are You Up To These Days?

Maybe it is just me, but I feel as if I have been asked that question a lot lately. For some odd reason, I seem to be running into people who have the need to know this about me, and I hate answering. Not because I am ashamed that I do not have a job or that I am not in school, but because I know what most of them are probably thinking, or going to think when they hear it. They are going to judge me in some way, shape, or form, and I hate that. Yes, I do have a few part-time jobs, and I do all the errands for my mom, and believe it or not, I am happy and love where I am at in my life, but I also know people will still think of the fact that I do not have a full-time job or are in school. In other words, I am not doing anything productive or worthwhile.

Honestly, I do not care what they think or if they judge me, but at the same time, I do not want to sound like I am not being productive, like I do nothing. So, in order to sound like I actually have goals and do not want to be a bum, I tell them (after telling them that I am not really doing much of anything) that I am in the middle of applying to law schools. And their responses go from glum to peppy: "Oh" to "OH!" Then of course, that opens a whole new door that I would really prefer not to walk into, but have to since I opened it. I now have to answer all their questions about that. Where I am applying to, what kind of law, have I taken the LSATs yet, etc, etc. Thankfully, the conversation wanes after that and we are both off to continue whatever we were doing.

I may not really be up to anything or doing anything these days, and quite frankly, I love it and am happy. So judge me all you want and think whatever you want. I may hate it, but I do not really care. I do not have to answer or explain my self to anyone. I will keep doing what I am doing, and hopefully, next time I run into you, it will be when I am lawyer. In fact, next time, it might be across of a courtroom.