Meeting Someone

Since my ex and I broke up he has had three dates (one was a short relationship). I have had none. I do not mention this because I think of it as a competition; I mention it because I am finding it very hard to meet someone. I got lucky with the last two men I dated. In fact, I think of my last two relationship as flukes of some sort. I never intended to meet the two men and date them, but it just happened. I guess you can say I had some good luck and everything sort of fell into my lap.

Now though, I don't know. I have a gut feeling that as easy as those two were to find, this next one, whomever he may be, is going be just as hard (and my gut is always right). This is not because I am picky, or snobby, or anything of the sort. I am not. Yes, I have standards, everyone does, but I do not have an insane amount of criteria, or insane criteria itself, that needs to be met. I just want a nice, Jewish guy who is meant for me.  He is out there. I know it. I just find it ironic that in this day and age, where we have so many ways of meeting someone (the internet, mixers, events, friends, etc.), that I am having a hard time doing so.

I do not want to rush anything, though. I am in no way anxious to get married and settle down. But I do want that someone special, and sometimes I cannot help but wonder if he has already passed me by. Not necessarily one of my exes, but maybe someone I knew or already know. I am happy being single, but like most other singles, I want love in my life. Maybe I should just do what I have done before and not look. It seemed to work out well the last two times.